My little brother and I went to town today (we live in the boonies) and we rented 5 movies because it would be cheaper that way somehow. What's funny is there weren't even 5 movies that we wanted to watch. It was actually hard to find 5 movies. But we grabbed our fifth one, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, with the words, "This is always a good one." I had a blast with him, bustin out Mae tunes and being silly. Justin and I do silliness pretty well. Anyway, it was a good time. The whole trip began as an endeavor to find the third Lord of the Rings movie so we popped that in as soon as we got back. Before we knew it two hours had past and it was time for Justin to leave for his basketball game. So he left. (Sorry for the play by play action - I know how some of you love it.)

And I was really alone for the first time in a long time. I spent some time making a few necessary phone calls to friends that thought I had abandoned them. But after that, I was left with the conundrum of what to do. So, I piddled online, considered taking a shower (but its break - who does that), watched another movie, we do have a few of those around. Finally I opted to pick up a book.

Matthew and Heather got me Velvet Elvis for Christmas, a great book, I've heard. So I nestled in the window seat surrounded by pillows and covered in a blanket and opened it. It was quiet and cozy and all I could do was just sit there thinking. I looked out into the dark night and listened to the wind and thought. I'm not a very good thinker, but this was some good thinking, I'd have to say.

In this near silence, I realized something about myself: I avoid solitude like the plague. There's something about the silence that drives me crazy. I run away from it. Boy have I changed. This is so opposite the girl that has grown up in the country, adoring nature and time to herself. At school, there are always people, always things to do, places to go and its so easy to get wrapped in it. It was never silent, I neglected quiet times and consequently, I'm uncomfortable in the quiet. This is not good.

So, tonight I thanked God for taking away distractions - the noise. I thanked Him for the subtle reminder to give Him more of my time and the opportunity to do so. It's been a great night.