Goodness...there is so much to learn.

It's absolutely crazy how you can think you've thought through everything and you've analyzed every possible angle all to realize that the opposite is true. You really didn't see much of the picture at all. I'm humbled by this. God's allowing me to see a bit more of Himself, how He works, and also Him in other people and it is terribly exciting to me right now.

I'm so thankful that despite being rash, and my readiness to attempt the impossible and please absolutely everyone, and continual failing, God gives second chances. Even third, fourth or as many as He wants. I am seriously overwhelmed by His mercy over me.

In chapel today, we sang Trading My Sorrows. I've never liked that song...until today. God's been so good to me and my life has been pretty sorrow and shame-free. Or its more likely that I've just never been real enough with Him and myself to admit when they actually exist. Anyway I'm still working at this authenticity that I claim to enjoy so much and it's really affecting change. I was real about my life today before God and I was ashamed, hurting, and sick from none other than my own actions. He has this way of changing situations of shame and regret into joy and into something for His glory. We just have to get ut of the way. Wow.

So in the last couple days I've learned more about humility, humanity, total trust, and forgiveness. Praise God, my friends.

- Heather Mae